initiative.

initiative.... a whole lot of difference it makes. we say that we love a person, but does our action show it? it isn't easy to say love and even harder to show it... always being the one to initiate is very taxing and tiring at times. but if the initiator stops initiating, everything will come to a standstill, to an end. isn't it? no one initiaties anymore then.... that is what the initiator is very scared and terrified of.... paranoid? overly worried? nonsensical thinking?

does the initiator makes a difference to anyone? can the person do without the initiator? the person is a self proclaimed bastard and asshole who can't change. should the initiator just leave the person to just be? since it does hurts quite a lot at times. that is the step that the initiator refuse to, do not want to, cannot bare to initiate. its not an option it seems as the world will spin and break into pieces should that happen. that is how the initiator feels......

the initiator cannot do without the person. the person seems to be able to do without the initiator. nothing can be changed. so... meaning from the start to the end everything is the same because nothing can be changed. so it is the same, be the initiator there or not to the person. logically speaking? or is the initiator not using the brain again?

being initiative to the opposite party shows that the initiator cares, values, will worry, is not taking forgranted the person and that the person is of significance. the person does not/cannot/do not know how to initiate.

but on the other hand. the initiator initiates too much and it becomes redundent. standard procedures.... no point? no meaning then? not sincere? does the initiator require too much? does the initiator ask for too much with little understanding of the person? maybe... ? yes... too much.... else the person will not get so pissed, more tired and stressed. the initiator is the one who is too dictative. can say initiates the wrong things almost always ba... really not using the brain. (not being sarcastic)

how do people maintain relationships? it is so difficult. will there be the days that people really do grow old together? xian ku hou tian?

i am thinking whether i should be posting this or not. i really really do not mean offence to anyone. i do not want to start a quarrel. i do not mean that i am right and you are wrong. i do not. i did not mean that. no rights, no wrongs, no offences, no quarrels....

anyway dajie's return date extended to next week. not 19july. take care...
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